It’s been a month since the psychiatrist lowered my medications. How am I doing? Fuckin’ great.

I’m not going to lie…when I applied for this mental health job, I had no qualifications whatsoever.

I have been on Abilify as long as I could remember, I started on the Abilify tablets but it wasn’t working well so they changed it to a monthly injection years and years ago.

1. It’s not about the free photos

A couple of years ago, I filed a DVO against my ex-partner - for rape and strangulation.

Many years ago…I got excluded from Nursing in my early twenties. For continuous academic failures. I thought I was the biggest failure in the world back then. I thought once I failed, I would fail even more things. Little did I know, that this failure in life would teach me many things in life.

In my previous blog post, “Why 2019 Was The Best Year Of My Twenties”, I was 28 when posting about my year and reflecting on it. I said 2019 was the best year of my twenties.But…2020 has also been really kind to me. Currently, as a 29-year-old, a lot of good things happened to me and here’s why:

Many times you made me prove who I am as a person.

I have lived with anxiety as long as I could remember. The racing thoughts, the unstoppable heart racing, the rapid speech - are some of my symptoms of anxiety.

In the darkness, you thought you wouldn’t make it. Schizophrenia. Another new diagnosis that left you feeling helpless at the time. It didn’t resonate with you at all. Then came Bipolar.

Not all medications that is trialled will work the very first time of trying. There is many trials and errors. The right combination of medications will come with time. Not all friendships and relationships will work out - there will be fallouts. The ones who truly cares about you will stay. They are the key people in your life - who encourages you, brings the best out of you and accepts you for who you are. Telling your story gets easier to better to share, you are not stigmatised by mental health and mental health issues.

I clearly remember my very first psychiatric hospital admission.I was put on ITO (Involuntary Treatment Order) at the Princess Alexandra Hospital in Brisbane. I was bizarre, I was suicidal and spent at least a day and more in the Emergency mental health ward.