Overcoming The Voices In My Head

Photo by Uli Klein

When I am unwell, I hear voices.

The voices can be ‘inside’ or ‘outside’ my head. Can be a female or male voice, or even a child’s voice. They sometimes tell me I’m ‘not worthy’, that I’m ‘not enough’.

The voices are always negative, and sometimes they tell me to hurt and do something bad to myself.

But I challenge these voices…when they tell me, “I’m not worthy”, I challenge them with “I am worthy.” When they say “I am not enough”, I challenge them with “I am enough”.

For me, the voices are there because I have faced trauma in the past.

When they’re really bad, and tell me to hurt myself, I know then I have to go to hospital.

On some occasions, I have to take PRN medications such as valium, to calm me down when they’re really bad.

When they’re that bad, it is a very frightening experience for me.

But one thing I learnt is that, I am stronger than the voices.

I spent almost two years at a mental health rehabilitation place to learn how to deal and overcome these voices.

And I’m proud to say the least, I am stronger than my voices.

Although I can’t ‘just get rid of them’ forever, I can learn how to manage it better.

I also believe there’s a difference in hearing God, and hearing voices.

God would never instruct me to die.

God is a good God, and would want me to live, and not die.