My Experience Navigating Through The Mental Health Hospital System

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I clearly remember my very first psychiatric hospital admission.

I was put on ITO (Involuntary Treatment Order) at the Princess Alexandra Hospital in Brisbane. I was bizarre, I was suicidal and spent at least a day and more in the Emergency mental health ward.

My belongings were locked away, I didn’t have much with me at all. I wasn’t allowed to use a phone, not even a pen and paper to write something on as I was on suicide watch.

My first admission was around three months in the Mental Health unit.

Because I was on ITO, I had to comply with all the medications they prescribed me.

I was nineteen years old (I’m 29 now) and this was my very first experience dealing with mental health issues. I was also put on “Constance” so every where I went - to the toilet, sleeping in my room, everywhere I went - I was followed and watched by a mental health nurse. This lasted for two months. I was really unwell. I couldn’t eat, I thought the food was poisoned - couldn’t shower myself and sometimes had “accidents” in my pants.

After the three months, a few days or so after my discharge, I was required to go to the Mental Health Tribunal. If I remember right, this particular meeting was to see whether I should be still placed on an Order or not. Luckily, the ITO label was taken off me.

But I remember the staff saying, it’s also really easy to be put back on ITO if something happens.

There have been times I have been “Voluntary” as a patient. I would call the ambulance when I was suicidal, and I remember telling the paramedics, “Please put in your notes that I’m Voluntary”.

As I didn’t like being on ITO, I feel I have ‘no control’ over my mental health…altogether, I have been in and out of the hospital system 10 times or so. I think I’ve lost count though, as I been in and out a lot of times. But to say the least, I haven’t been back to hospital for over two years now.