Why I Have Failed As A Christian
No one is perfect, let's not deny that. We all have our imperfections. Or could we say we are all imperfectly perfect. I know I have failed (not miserably) as a Christian in so many ways. I go by day-to-day thinking sometimes what I should have, could have done to make or have a better Christian/spiritual life. I repeatedly tell myself that everytime I have a problem with my spiritual life I will change myself to make it better but no, that's never the case. I tell myself I will quit clubbing, not drink, not smoke for Christian reasons. But the fact that I cannot do any of those things just doesn't make sense. I believe God accepts me for who I am and He is not a judgemental God. He's not there to make you feel guilty or what you done. He's there to love you. But still, I think I have failed as a Christian and here I explain why:
1. I don't go to church
I have a problem with the church. Or no, the people? Or both? I simply don't go every Sunday. It's not because I try to make excuses, it just doesn't seem to naturally be in my schedule anymore. As all Christians would say, Sunday service is really important to build the foundations of a good Christian life but that doesn't work for me anymore.
2. I don't read the Bible
Yes, by now you probably have labelled me as one of those Christians. Or have a picture in mind of what kind of Christian I am. I don't read the gospel. It's boring. It's dry. It doesn't connect with me. I don't understand it. I don't mean to offend anyone but every problem about the bible please come at me.
3. And I go clubbing...way too much!
I don't normally associate external factors in one's life and link them to whether they're a bad or good person on what they do buuuut I go clubbing far too much! But I think and feel it's ok. I'm just young, loves to dance and have fun. I don't meet many guys that much. I think I go clubbing for the right reasons.
Well, I feel my spiritual life has changed so much since like three months ago. I feel fine the way I am. I even want to classify myself as a spiritual person, and not religious. How people change...