Pregnancy + Bipolar - Will I Be Successful?

Wanting to fall pregnant was/is not an overnight decision.

In the midst of self-doubt and lack of confidence, I have always had mixed feelings about pregnancy and raising my own.

I have had a lot of people tell me many positive things about pregnancy and motherhood and that I would make a good mother, but I have received a more collective of comments that are really negative:

”You have Bipolar, you will give it to your child”

”You take strong medications, your baby will have deformities”

”You can’t take care of yourself, so you can’t take care of a baby”

I feel sometimes I drown in those negative connotations and feel convinced that I won’t make a ‘good' mother.

I have told myself, “Suzanne, this is your body, you know yourself best and you have good self-awareness”.

I strongly disagree with the comment, “You can’t take care of yourself.” though

I am champion when it comes to self-love and self-care.

This self awareness will go a long way, I tell myself, too.

From what I gathered, I learnt that nothing will prepare me to be ‘ready’ for pregnancy and motherhood.

I have thought about the financial aspects of pregnancy too.

I thought about the myriad of things that can go wrong for me and my baby, and even with my partner.

I know I have support and know how to ask for help too.

Photo by Samantha Gehrmann